Monday, November 2, 2009

4 Months Old

Our baby boy is four months old today. In three more days he will (if all goes well) officially become a Pell, though he was ours from the moment we saw his picture almost three months ago. I have meant to post each month and missed his two and three month “birthdays”. I think that part of me doesn’t even want to think about these missed days. I can’t pull out a calendar and mark down his accomplishments for the month as I don’t know them. I can’t write something he can read later about his personality or the things he is doing as I don’t know. My heart aches to know him. I remember this feeling when I was carrying my daughter Emma. The month before she was born I was so anxious to just meet her. I felt her, but I didn’t know her. When she came into this world it was instant love but it took a while to really get to know who she was. I feel the same about John. I haven’t felt him, but it is harder as I have seen him in pictures. Not the fuzzy ultrasound kind. But the real clear kind. The kind that changes with each picture that we get. The kind that reminds us that he is really out there getting older and we have not been there to watch this growth. I can’t wait for the day that we will meet. The day we will see with our own eyes our baby we have seen in pictures. The day we will begin to really know him. To know his unique personality. His likes his dislikes. His funny quirks, his gummy smile. Happy four month birthday baby boy…….

12 comments:

  1. Thank you for praying! Our son will be 4 months later this month. I hope that each of us will be able to celebrate the next big milestone WITH our sons in person!

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  2. Happy 4 months Johnny! Can't wait to meet you! We love you.

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  3. Happy 4 month! Praying for your family...and for your sweet boy! love following your journey!!!

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  4. Oh JT... Happy Bday! Can't wait to meet him!
    The Cornwall Mission Team went to Hannah's Hope yesterday, so hopefully they loved on him and took lots of cute pix of him...
    If you want to follow their journey, they have a blog and it is linked on mine.
    Love you Pells!

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  5. Happy 4 months, John! We're all praying that you're officially a Pell in a few days!

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  6. What a post. I understand the depth of your words. Praying for you as you wait. This part of the journey is def more challenging since we have a face and a name, etc. Praying for news that delights your heart this week! Happy 4 months!!

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  7. Praying for you guys! This is such a hard time but you will have him home in the near future and he will have wonderful memories to look forward to with his forever family!

    Theresa

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  8. I'm wishing you the best of luck as you approach your court date! The hardest thing ever must be after you see his picture and fall in love with him, and then have to wait to see him in person.

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  9. So well said. All of us adoptive moms out here are with you and get it. Celebrating his 4 months with you and praying for your court day.

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  10. Praying you get to know him REAL SOON!!!!!! In person- in your arms forever :)

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  11. What a beautiful testimony to the pains ans joys of motherhood. Our prayers are with you all as you end your journey. Can't wait for the phone call. Hurry home Mr. Pell we all love you and can't wait to meet you. Meemaw.

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