Sunday, December 6, 2009

Expectation...Disapointment....Hope

Back in October, I was expecting to have our son home by now. I remember thinking, probably by Thanksgiving but definately by Christmas. Then Thanksgiving came and went, I went through the disapointment of not making the first travel group and found hope in being included in the next. Our court date came and and with it great news. We breathed a sigh of relief, our waiting was coming to an end. It was looking very good that we would have him home for Christmas. We waited for our travel call and instead were faced with disapointment again. It took weeks for me to feel like I had come to terms with the ramifications of our delay follwed by a week of hope that our wait would once again come to an end and then....disapointment again. Many have described adoption as a roller coaster of emotions. I would say this is a very accurate description of how we have been feeling. And so here we are....hope is starting to peek through once again......expectation of passing court on the third try is beginning to form......please Lord let it be followed with relief not disapointment.

We are praying for the miraculous. We are praying that whoever is responsible for our paperwork at the Ministry of Women's Affairs dreams dreams about our family tonight. That he or she can't shake us out of their mind. That getting that letter done is at the top of their list to do when they enter their office tomorrow (tonight for us). Please pray with us that our wait comes to an end and that if it does not, that we are able to give our disapointment to our maker that is able to bear it for us....I am no longer able to bear it alone.

11 comments:

  1. I am so incredibly sorry for what you are going through. I know already how emotional this adoption journey is and fully anticipate it being way harder post referral. My hope and prayer is that you will get good news at your next court date and that in January you will get to finally go pick your son up.

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  2. You articulated your thoughts and feelings about this so well and you don't sound bitter. I'd be out of my mind bitter and angry. I'm glad that the Lord has turned your heart to prayer. Thanks for giving specifics on how to pray. I'm praying with you guys. We're traveling next week. Do you want to email me a picture of your babe so I can check on him?

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  3. Praying praying praying for you and your sweet family.

    -emily v.
    vogeltanzfamily.com

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  4. Praying for all of you. I love you all and so wish you didn't have to go through this, but you are not alone going through this. He knows how you feel and He is right there with you, and His plan is the best plan. You don't have to bear it alone, as He has always been there to carry you when it gets so hard. I am sorry I didn't realize how difficult this was for you to begin with but think I am understanding more now. Never thought you would have to go through this disappointment so much. I am sorry.
    Am praying with you, and praying delays stop. Love you all.

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  5. You just put into words exactly what I'm feeling. Praying that you (and we) will pass this week!

    Stacy

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  6. Y'all are at the tip top of our prayer list... God bless you.

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  7. I am praying like crazy for you! I am so sorry for your delays. Praying, praying, praying!

    Audrey

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  8. We are praying earnestly for you and won't stop until he is in your arms. Hoping these next few days pass by quickly.

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  9. Praying for you daily. Knowing in our hearts that God has a plan. Disappointment and time are so hard to understand, but we know in our hearts that God's plan is perfect. Love to all we Miss you. Meemaw and Papa

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